][[``__.+.An UrBaN FaIrY's DiArY.+._

It's 1:06 am and I'm just waiting for my shift to start. My eyes are getting heavy with each minute but I just can't seem to find the will to sleep. Something is still bothering me...BIG TIME. And the bigger problem is I have no idea what it's about. It just keeps nagging at the back of my head.

NEWSFLASH: There are no people on avail. It's queueing. For heaven's sake it's already Thursday. The queue should be lighter than this. 3 waiting as reported by Jayson. Give us a break!

Anyways, this is the first time this week that I will be taking calls again. I was put on Aux 3 last Monday for the whole shift. On Tuesday, I was given a half-day SL. And come Wednesday, they told me to go home and get some rest, and so I did. My throat still hurts, I feel light-headed and also I feel restless. I have just taken my medicines about 20 minutes ago actually. I'm starting to lose faith in them because they don't seem to work as they should anymore. I have spent more than a thousand pesos for my medicines and I have not fel the relief that I think I should be getting. I have been to the doctor twice already and each time I was given different sets of medicine. But, here I am still soundly sniffling. I want to get better!!!

Work hasn't been the same since the transfer to Trend Micro. I have nothing against the account. As I've said a gazzillion times, the support is failry easy. But that isn't my problem!!! TAKING CALLS IS MY PROBLEM! I hate talking and talking and talking to frustrated customers. I know I can help them (well at least some of them) but the idea that they are relying on you to ACTUALLY solve their problem is so not my thing. I miss the old EA days, just emailing people. COPY+PASTE. My favorite command during that time. My life was much easier then. I didn't have to drag myself to work during those times. I was actually looking forward to work. But alas, those days are all but a distant memory. Now I'm stuck to dealing with malwares and such. I'm helping people get rid of viruses from their computer when I can't even get rid of the virus that is residing in my body. My station used to be covered with colorful EA game covers but now it's tacked with black and white print-outs of "Quick Guides" that ranges from the call flow to phonetics. How dull can it get? The only thing that stands out from the rest of the papers that are neatly pinned to my desk wall is the drawing Jon made for me. A drawing of an angel and a devil. I asked him to make that one for me before he left the company. Here's a link to his Deviant Art site. http://variable-edge.deviantart.com/art/Request-Angel-and-Devil-105297921.

I miss EA.

I miss eating lunch on time.

I miss playing Battlefield 2142.

I miss being an email agent.

I miss the playful banters and "kabaklaan" of my email teammates.

I guess it'll really never be the same again. I would have to live with what I have right now. Still waiting for the baleen payout. Let's just say that that is what keeps me hanging on. If it weren't for the payout I'd be long gone. Au revoir to TM! Au revoir to Telus! But for the meantime..."Thank you for calling Trend Micro..."

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thud! thud! [Tuesday, April 17, 2007]

Crap! About 10 minutes ago, we had our first mock call training. I can't seem to gather my thoughts. My hands are still a bit shaky. Heart still racing. I'm also having a hard time breathing. (Reminds me of my angina attacks back in high school.)This is my first call center job...oh wait let me rephrase that...this IS my first job. Freaky...freaky...freaky!!! I admit I'm scared shit but the people around me have been such a great help. The guys i work with are so easy to talk to. I know that I can ask them for help anytime. A very accomodating bunch of people...hehehe... Hopefully in time I'd be able to polish my skills so that I can perform really well. Crap...nde ako mkasulat ng maaus. I'll just try to update this some other time...later...

Labels: ambergris

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been a while... [Monday, February 05, 2007]

Wow, it's been a long time...haven't found the time to blog. A lot of things have happened. Too many things to say, too little time. I just wanted to update this. I'll post this slideshow for now and when I feel like it, I'll post again and tell you what's been happening in my life...later...

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Saggie me... [Tuesday, October 31, 2006]

>>>SAGITTARIUS<<<

>Spontaneous.

>Freak in Bed.

>High sex appeal.

>Rare to find.

>Great when found.

>Loves being in long relationships.

>The one

>So much love to give

>Not one to mess with

>Very pretty.

>Very romantic.

>Nice to everyone They meet.

>Their Love is one of a kind.

>Silly, fun

I got this from a bulletin in friendster. I found it funny yet somewhat true. Hahaha...it really does describe who I am or can be. Somethings are kinda hard to believe though...haha! But most of it seem to really catch my personality.

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Life has been a lot easier for me. I wake up each morning, with a smile on my face knowing that another great day is about to come. I have been keeping in touch with my best friends, Gemay has been a constant textmate, while Anna on the other hand is still pretty much occupied with her theatre, so almost no txt at all. Speaking of which, Gem and I owe Anna big time! We missed her play last Saturday, for perfectly good reasons though. I got sick and Gemay had to attend Novel's wedding. I promised to make it up to Anna, I'll watch her play on Nov., that's a promise na! I haven't txtd Anna yet...scared that she's still mad at me and Gem, hopefully not anymore. It's been more than a week, since our break up. I busy myself with chores around the house and playing with my baby. I can't help but smile a lot lately, haha! I could even be mistaken for a mental patient because I look so silly when at times I just stare and smile. Haha! Stupid looking me! I am happy, very happy and I just wish that they would understand and let me be. Allen is too scared that guys would line up and court me, swt as if that'll happen! I am not on the lookout for a relationship, I have my baby to deal with. I'm happy with my baby right now, very,very,very happy. I'm so lucky to have my baby with me, he makes me so happy. I just love him so much...he means the world to me. Haayz, tomorrow I've got to go back to class. Poi will be attending a halloween party but I will still have to decide if I'd be going with them or not. I'm just happy and content with my life right now. That's all that matters to me right now. I guess that's it for now, I'm not sleepy yet, so I guess I'll go watch TV...later...

~* Mystique Mallow *~

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goodbye [Friday, October 27, 2006]

He said goodbye today, October 27,2006 @ 2:35 pm. It's final, he's moving on, about time na rin nmn. I know that he's hurting but we really need to part ways. Our relationship isn't healthy anymore, we just have to move on. Our 6 years together would not be put to waste, but instead it will serve as a lesson. We both learned not to take things for granted. If you love someone, do everything in your power to make them feel loved. Haayz...that's life, i never expected this to happen. It just did. I loved him, I really did. I gave him everything I could, I know he did the same thing, but things change lng tlga. I never wanted to hurt him tlga...kaso ganun eh...anyways...un na lng for now...later..

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just browsing... [Saturday, October 07, 2006]

"A soulmate is someone who has locks that fit our keys, and keys to fit our locks. When we feel safe enough to open the locks, our truest selves step out and we can be completely and honestly who we are; we can be loved for who we are and not for who we're pretending to be. Each unveils the best part of the other. No matter what else goes wrong around us, with that one person we’re safe in our own paradise. Our soulmate is someone who shares our deepest longings, our sense of direction. When we’re two balloons, and together our direction is up, chances are we’ve found the right person. Our soulmate is the one who makes life come to life."

I came upon this quote while surfing the net, it just occurred to me that there is a whole lotta truth to it. I have been reading a bit, well okay not a bit but a lot of fanfics lately and well I've been contemplating a lot about relationships. In a relationship, obviously there should be love, but there is more to it...respect, individuality and trust. A relationship wouldn't survive with just love, IMO, it should have all four elements to be a considered a healthy one. If it lacks one of these four things then there's bound to be trouble. Also the other day, I was reading the comics section of MB and I chanced upon a proverb/saying, "Faults are thick where love is thin.", here is yet another proof that love may be present in a relationship but if all you do is fight and find faults in each other then you should start thinking about where you guys are heading. I know that fanfics are, of course, a bit exaggerated, it being fictional and all; but I know there is more to it than its "kilig" factor. It shows us, how love should be, could be and would be if we just took the time to ponder on the more important things. Moreover, being together doesn't mean that you are not entitled to be an individual anymore. In a relationship, you should be given the chance to grow and bloom to what you want / could be. The limits in a relationship should in turn have limits to itself. Being a couple should not deny you from being yourself, it should in fact be an inspiration to be who you are because in the first place, that's what you guys liked about each other. So for heaven's sake, be an inspiration and not a desperation.

"The worst lies are the lies we tell ourselves. We live in denial of what we do, even what we think. We do this because we're afraid. We fear we will not find love, and when we find it we fear we'll lose it. We fear that if we do not have love we will be unhappy."

Think! Think! Think! We had better make our minds up before we go insane...hahahaha. It's always about fear...fear...fear and more fear. Fear of being alone, fear of being left behind and fear of being rejected are the most common fears when it comes to love. I am slowly learning that you shouldn't infest you lives with such fears because they will only eat you up and leave you with...NOTHING! You have got to get the courage to go for what you want, be with who you wanna be (hopefully they'll feel the same ^^), in short just take a chance! We only live once (but I've been praying that there really is a next life >.<) and so we should live our lives to the fullest. We should always look at the brighter side of life, being optimistic about stuff will greatly help the outcome of your life. By being optimistic, you can envision your desired life, but it shouldn't end there, you should try to find a way to achieve that goal...you gotta work your butts off to get it! You can't just idly stand by and wish or hope that things will come out as you imagined them to be. You have got to take action. I've been thinking a lot lately... I guess that's it for now...bitin ba...hehehe...later...

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A liitle bit of everything... [Saturday, September 30, 2006]

I was kinda hesitant to tell you
Should I let you know
I was never really like this before
Need I say more

Or maybe I'm confused when you are near me
I don't know what to do or I should be
There's only one thing in my mind
That's you and me

CHORUS
I'm a little bit of crazy
I'm a little bit of a fool
I'm a little bit of lonely
I'm a little bit of all
Oh, I need a cure
Just a little bit of you
And I will fall

I'm always on the run to see you
Would you allow me to
It wasn't my intention to hurt you
This feeling is true

Or maybe I'm confused when you are near me
I don't know what to do or I should be
There's only one thing in my mind
That's you and me

CHORUS
I'm a little bit of crazy
I'm a little bit of a fool
I'm a little bit of lonely
I'm a little bit of all
Oh, I need a cure
Just a little bit of you
And I will fall

I've been listening to this song and
(Forevermore by Side A)for the past hour now.
It's got a great tune and good lyrics as well...
haaayz... This song just says it all...
we all need a cure...ahahahaha...
I guess that cure has been quite elusive...
Being in love can be the best thing in the world,
but it can also be the worst.
Sacrifices has to be made,
lotsa hurt to be dealt with
and also the chance of falling out of love
or being fallen out of love with.

~* Mystique Mallow *~

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what my birthmonth says about me... [Thursday, September 07, 2006]

This straight-up means ur the most good-lookingLoyal and generous. Patriotic. Competitivein everything. Active in games and interactions.Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential inorganizations. Fun to be with. Easy to talk to,though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision,yet complicated to know. Easily influenced bykindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots ofideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends todelay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. (someone who they'll never have) Has that someone always on his/her mind. Talkative. Daydreamer.Friendly. Knows how to make friends
Take this quiz!

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my element... []

.:-|What is your true element?|-:. -With Anime Pictures and detailed answers-

Your element is Fire: Strong, hot tempered, powerful, and passionate. Well now lets see, being fire you are quite strong and powerful be it mentally, physically or both. People look up to you greatly and often seek your protection. You have the ability to gain many friends and you are always one people can count on to do what you say you will do. You are extremely loyal, be it friends or family you'll stick up for them and you are never willing to put them in a position that could hurt them. You know what roll you play in life, leader, and you intend to let people know it. Not everyone is capable of leadership but you certainly have the willpower and flare to do it. You have quite a temper if it shows itself, one that can often lead you into trouble. Once your mind is made up there is no changing it but no one said that was a bad thing.
Take this quiz!

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new do... [Wednesday, September 06, 2006]

I finally had my hair cut yesterday.

I think I have had enough of my one-length hair so I decided to have a layered one instead. The last time I had this type of haircut was way back in highschool.

I was a bit hesitant at first because I have always felt secure having my hair that long, but when it was done, I was happy with the outcome. My baby said I looked like a highschool girl, hehehe. I just feel so rejuvinated. By the way, I have been able to fix my sleeping habits already. I sleep early and wake up early na rin. It's better that way because I'm able to eat 3 meals a day unlike before when I only get to eat at least 2.

I have been a very bad girl lately, been missing some of my classes,

crap I'm starting to slack off. I need to change that pronto! I need to talk to my prof to straighten some things out. Aside from that, everything's fine and dandy. I'm happy with the way things are.

Of course, I'm still playing Ragnarok, what else is new. Haha! My creator just turned 99 yesterday, but my homun is only level 79. (I deleted my level 85 homun because its stats sucked!) My champ's already level 96, I never thought that it could reach that level, thanks to the exp mod! Sieges have been awesome!

I have been using my gypsy (Lego's special request), it's very useful when we're pushing because my scream skill stuns the wizards. Skoegul is our home right now, hopefully it'll stay that way for a very long time. Hmm, what else... We had a mini-eb over at Ate Eyrin's shop last Sept.2 (a mini celebration for Thea's b-day), lotsa food and lotsa fun. We sieged together and we even played a bit of counter strike before going home. Kuya Eggie dropped us off at Quezon Ave. We finally met Chippy's twin, oops, Kuya Eggie's gf pala, Ate Leah was really nice. All in all...everything's great!

I have to go now, lotsa chores to do. I'll try to write soon. Later...

~* Mystique Mallow *~

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slip inside my mind [Sunday, August 13, 2006]

My mind seems to be wandering off every now and then. Making stuff up, invisioning my fantasies (not the green kind btw) and most of all just savoring the best times I had. I like it when it rains because it just gives me that nostlagic feeling. I could even hear a faint sound of the song "High School life" hahahaha...just kidding! Speaking of high school, I do miss those days. The best part of my school life, I could say is during my high school. My friends were always there, we would hang out in our tambayan (tents),walk around the campus (walking non-stop) and most of all; our music jams! I just miss the days wherein Twitch would pick up her guitar then she would start strumming our favorite songs then all of us would just sing along. The days when I would run towards the canteen when it's lunch or recess time just to be the first in line, the reason "kc baka maubos ung cutlet". Food was the best in ssc!!! Recess (siomai w/rice 2 servings),Lunch (cutlet indefinite # of servings) and lastly, tambay time;after dismissal (chicken fillet combo!)! Hungry Sphinx

Haayz, and of course the inspirations, hahaha! I wouldn't elaborate on that anymore! GG I even met my hubby in ssc, it was co-ed for a day, ssc and san beda,then the serenading began... Serenade

; and so did the massive crying and heartaches! But hey, no regrets here! I also miss our corridor days where we would just sit outside on the corridors and talk, talk, talk and talk even more. Hmm...it would be nice to feel that way again, so careless and free. That's it for now, I need to rest...later...

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bottomline is...I'm happy [Friday, August 04, 2006]

Yup, I know my life has been quite hectic the past month...lotsa stuff to do...but guess what I'm still happy. Even my mom's persistent nagging to keep my room always clean can't get me down. Somehow I can still find a way to keep a smile on my face. My baby's growing up pretty well, he likes to eat a lot now, especially fruits. There's this thing that helps me endure everything, it hinders me from giving up...and I know it's love. Love inspires me to go on despite all the bad circumstances. Love for myself and love for my family is what keeps me going on. Whenever I think of it, my heart just starts beating real fast and butterflies seem to fill my stomach. Hahaha, I know I'm not making any sense about this love thing...but it's how I feel. I know I need to be strong for my baby, for my whole family for that matter. I need to get on with life, pick up where I left off before and try to start anew. Hopefully by Dec or Jan I could get a job, off into the real world. I reckon it's about time that I flew with my own wings and not depend on my parents. I wanna earn my own cash, buy stuff for my hubby and my baby. I want to feel the real meaning of independence, I do admit I'm scared, but hey I know sooner or later I have to face it. I have lost a lot of self confidence and now I'm willing to get that back. I want to be myself again, the Vanessa that just can't seem to stop doing everything and anything. The Vanessa who always had something to say. I miss the old days wherein I was always in charge, always in the front line ready for battle. I know that my childhood dreams have already been shattered but I believe that God has got better plans for me. I don't regret everything that has happened in my life, I'm actually happy that it happened because it has taught me a lot. It taught me to be stronger and to not depend on any body else to obtain happiness.

My baby boy never fails to make me smile. My hubby...hahahah...no comment! Tongue Out 9

He's helping me out with the chores at home...thank you baby, I love you!

mwah! I couldn't ask for more!! I'm so lucky to be with you...and Poi...

My RO life is the same, ahahaha, I'm on vend mode right now. Trying to start a business.

My 2 best friends, are the same as ever, chaotic and LOUD!! Whenever the three of us get together, it surely will be a riot!! Gathering

We're still planning a date for our dinner, maybe sometime this month but it still depends on their schedule.

Weeeee... I just wanted to share how I feel. I just feel so complete...I'm just plain happy! w00t

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life is sweet [Friday, June 16, 2006]

This whole week has been a blast for me. So far, so good. I've been to all of my classes, not even one abscence!! Hahaha...that's a new record! Thumbs Up

Kahit na simple computer essentials lang ung class, I don't get bored. I don't know why but the ambiance surely helps. Eating, is of course a part of it. We've eaten in most of the resto's in the vicinity! Yummy! Hungry Sphinx

Sobrang yummy nung Heavenly Blueberry Cheesecake ng Delifrance (we ate there kanina, before going home). Also, the iced lemon tea was so soothing, it tasted like Pancke House's house iced tea. Grabe!! I love gorging on food,hahahaha. We'll be having our CE exams on the 20th so I'd better study. I do hope I can continue this kind of attitude. Sheesh... I gotta go for now, need to go outside for the Bingo! later...

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cough...cough...cough [Friday, June 09, 2006]

Our classes started yesterday, it was pretty fun. We're only 18 in the class, the oldest is 59. Hehehe... Most of them are working already and they just want to venture into a new career. Our first subject is Computer Essentials, don't need it that much. I'm very familiar with computers...hahahaha...I spend a whole day in front of one. ehehehe Nakakahiya nga lang, kc I'm still sick, I keep on coughing and sniffling. Buti na lng we sat at the back of the class. I have been sick for about a week na siguro. We're planning to go to Ortigas one of these days to have my cellphone checked. Hmmm...I just heard some news about Gem (hay naku bruha...what the hell happened to you!)...Saisaki treat namin malapit na! Hmmm...what else happened...wala na me maisip. Oh yes! We ate at Mongkok again...yummy! I really like their yang chow rice and siomai. The chicken was good too. I need to wake up early tomorrow. Our class will start at 8:00 am and it will at end at 2:00 pm. I guess that's it for now. later...

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